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| Time to rise from the ashes |
First, thank you to everyone for the supportive comments, tweets, messages and sentiments on
my weighty post yesterday. Summary: divorce and dating have made me gain weight. I ate when I was sad, then wasn't about to order a salad on a first date. Shit has settled down a bit in my life and I need to focus on me again (hence my
single me manifesto).
148.5
I know as a long-time healthy living blogger what I'm supposed to write next is that I love myself at any size and embrace the changes in life knowing that I'm doing the best for my body.
But this is my blog and that sentiment does not resonate with me.
This number defines me. Haunts me. Depresses me immensely.
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| Cold comfort |
I have not done what's right for my body, nor nourished myself appropriately. I've only comforted myself in the most indulgent and unhealthy ways possible. The fact that I could
finish an Ironman is purely out of stubbornness, not because I adequately trained and fueled my body.
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| New me is saucy |
It took me four months to put this on, and I can only hope that I can take it off in four months. I'd like to get back to 127 for the
Circular Logic Marathon, which is at the end of March. This is a big goal, and at the worst possible time of year (hello turkey, Christmas cookies, holiday munchies and a wedding in there for good measure), but if I want to PR that thing, I need to give myself a fighting chance. Also, I've been able to keep up a decent speed, PRing a half marathon a month ago. If I dropped all this weight, I wonder how fast I could get.
So
I rejoined Weight Watchers. It's worked for me in the past in that it gives me concrete rules to follow and a system of accountability. I get 26 points per day, 49 flex points per week and can earn activity points for running.
The first goal WW gives you is to lose 10 percent of your body weight. Personally, I'd like to be down to 138 by New Year's Eve. It'll be my first NYE hitting the town and I'd like to buy something cute to wear for the occasion. I don't think it's out of reach - back in the day, I lost four pounds the first week I started dieting, and that was long before I was running on top of cutting back on beer and chocolate and froyo.
So here's to new beginning and losing some baggage in the form of weight, guilt and the past.
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For what it's worth, I think being happy at whatever weight you're at and feeling like you're taking good care of yourself are two different things, so no need to apologize for wanting to do the latter.
I'm around the same weight as you right now, I've gained 25 pounds over the past 6 years. Some of it has been due to starting a food blog but more of it has been due to stress (hating my job mostly, but in the past year, relationship stuff hasn't helped) which, ironically, has also gotten me out of my yoga routine (at my best I was going 3 times a week. In the past 6 months I've been 3 times despite moving two blocks from a great studio). I'm trying my damndest to at least get back to once a week for my mental state if nothing else.
If there's one thing I've learned from yoga though, no matter how hard you're working and busting your ass to achieve your goal, you also have to be kind to yourself and forgive yourself for whatever "wrongs" you think you've done. It's easier said than done of course, it's really one if the hardest lessons for me, but I think it's important.
Good luck with your journey Kelly, you'll get there.
Setting a goal is a good first step. I always do that with my running, yet haven't with my my weight which is probably why I've done well with running, but haven't lost as much weight as I would like. I should follow your lead and hopefully shrink a little by Circular Logic as well. They say every pound of fat lost is 1-2 seconds per mile which adds up in a marathon.
Good luck! I've been debating signing back up (again). I signed up this spring but let it lapse when it got closer to my marathons. Please...any good recipes or any WW talk...message me!
not to be mean, but you lost about 185 of a boy... LOL...ok...very mean...
moving on..I know you can do this..
You got this, Kelly! Just remember, being healthy means more than the number on the scale.
I'm on the warpath with my weight loss lately- I gained 30 lbs in the first 2 years of marriage, have lost 15 of it so far and want to lose the rest by mid-January. Time to step it up. Let's do this!
I want to hear more about the story behind your saucy picture.
I'm with Maggie too. You look gorgeous and sexy in that picture!
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